Have you ever noticed those times when you are between parts of your life? Like times in your car when you are by yourself and between where you are going and where you are coming from? Or, that time just before you fall asleep at night, tired from your day, but not yet asleep? Or you’re in your morning shower, when you have finished the business of showering and you allow the water to embrace you, leaning into it for a few stolen seconds before you have to get on with your day?
Most of the times we don’t notice or think about these pauses in our life. Increasingly, though, I find these in-between moments to be quite precious. They allow me to shake off my persona and who I am in relation to everything and everyone else, and I get to be someone who is simply driving or falling asleep or someone standing in the shower. No pressures. No expectations. Just a couple of breaths where I can imagine the possibilities of the next moment without worry or attachments.
Sounds a little Zen, I know, or, maybe a little corny. But I think there is something in these in-between moments that restores us. And don’t we find ourselves in that same place when we suffer loss in life or when we are really sick or when something miraculous happens to us where we are so full of something lovely like a first love. I think these moments are when we are really free. We chase after this feeling of freedom through our activities and busyness, but I think what we are really after is in those quiet in-between moments when we remember how to really take a breath and truly see what is all around us.
As someone who works in the science world, I think a lot of our scientific discoveries are made in those in-between moments. Those “eureka” and “epiphany” moments most probably happen during those in-between times. As a writer, I know that it is during those moments when the story comes to me and my writer's block disappears into thin air.
These moments are like breadcrumbs, scattered throughout our lives and leading us along a path back to ourselves.
Here is to our in-between moments! May they forever be part of our lives!
I was inspired to write Dark Matter: The Secret Revealed, the first novel in The Butterfly Prophecy Series, by books like Marion Zimmer Bradley’s, The Mists of Avalon and Stephenie Meyer’s, Twilight Series. I chose novels, from an early age, to learn about human relationships and to explore what it meant to be female. Jane Austen, Charlotte Bronte, Margaret Atwood and Doris Lessing took me into the female psyche and revealed that the struggle to discover our power as women is waged both from within and without; and, for women, there is a catch! We have not yet had the opportunity to fully realize what the world may look like if it was truly created in our own image!
What matters to our fair sex, and how we wield power when we have it is part and parcel of our experience as women in the world. It affects how we lead and how we love. I wanted to create a world in Dark Matter that allowed my heroine to explore, both from within and without, the full extent of her personal power. I wanted to take a journey and discover, as a writer, unencumbered by the limitations of the real world, what a strong young woman, who had suffered tremendous loss and who was still not in possession of herself, could do if she was given the opportunity to truly know herself and to lead.
In Dark Matter, the heroine, Belinda Benson, is an immortal healer who has lost her memory. She has lived many centuries; however, she cannot remember her origins—the time when she was a mortal. She is afraid to discover her past, but compelled to do so when the love of her life, Damien Garant, a mortal, becomes ill and will die if he does not receive emila.
To discover emila, Belinda must journey through time to the sixth century, modern-day Isle of Man, where she was once Cerridwen, a High Priestess of the Isle of the Mists, deeply in love with the knight, Sir Gareth, in King William’s Court. It is here where she must face her greatest enemy, Sir Mordecai, who is also a knight in King William’s Court and Sir Gareth’s brother. He will stop at nothing to destroy her and all that she holds dear.
The Butterfly Prophecy Series, beginning with Dark Matter, is ultimately a visionary narrative of what a world deeply influenced by an insightful and conscientious woman of power can become. It is equally a timeless and profound love story that celebrates the beauty and messiness of giving your heart away to another only to find it never leaves you when you give it with such abiding love.
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Deborah Ann Gordon.